Discovering the Inherent Treasure of Life
You have to use your mind and spirit to
feel the world, use your mind and spirit to feel life, use your mind and spirit
to feel the inherent body of life. You must have a dialog with your own mind
and spirit, and you must deduce the most simple truth from all the various
apparent forms being born and being extinguished, just like the Buddha’s
experience under the bodhi tree. Only if you do this, will you be able to
discover the inherent treasure of life.
In my novel The Spells of Xixia, the
protagonist Khyung is a very significant figure. What I was pointing out was
that Khyung, who was an ascetic monk on a pilgrimage, was really also the
guardian spirit in Desert Rituals who went to another village seeking his
dream. He traveled very far, and broadened his knowledge by seeing many people
and events, but he was not able to find the so-called holy land. Later he
returned to the run-down Vajra house,and there he saw the seed mantra ofthe
Vajra Yogini(one of the spirit totems of those who cultivate practice). At this
point he understood that the place he had been seeking all along was his own
home village.
For many years, I was traveling on a
“pilgrimage,” and I did not care what temples I passed through. One year I
visited almost all the temples on Mount Wu Tai, but I did not remember the name
of a single one. All I could remember was that in the space of many months I
peacefully traveled that “pilgrimage” route. In my mind the pilgrimage was not
going to see some temple buildings or physical scenery, but was purely a matter
of a yearning for and a reverence for a kind of spirit. All my pilgrimages were
just to cleanse my own spirit, and make myself merge into one great energy and
dissolve away “selfish clinging.”
In is not difficult to understand the
meaning of the words of this statement in theory, but if you want to genuinely
understand it, then you must look within, and focus on your own mind and
spirit, and forget about everything the external world puts on you, including
various forms of common sense, theory, knowledge, and experience, and even your
physical body. You have to use your mind and spirit to feel the world, use your
mind and spirit to feel life, use your mind and spirit to feel the inherent
body of life. You must have a dialog with your own mind and spirit, and you
must deduce the most simple truth from all the various apparent forms being
born and being extinguished, just like the Buddha’s experience under the bodhi
tree. Only if you do this, will you be able to discover the inherent treasure
of life, and gain the wisdom of liberation.
Perhaps we should not say “gain,”
because this wisdom does not depend on someone else bestowing it, nor is it a
kind of discovery, nor is it something that exists apart from you – it is
something that is inherently there. So let’s change how we describe it, and use
the word “open” [rather than “gain”]: open the treasury of wisdom in your life,
open the spiritual flower garden of your inner mind, open the secret code of
happiness that is within you. We can also say “discover”: discover your
inherent happiness, discover your inherent light of wisdom. People who
cultivate practice work hard for years, but this is just to sweep the mind
clean of the dirt that has accumulated over the years, and break the hard shell
enclosing the mind and spirit. This lets their own minds become soft and
supple, keen and sharp, and have a love that knows everything and tolerates
everything but is not blind. This kind of love is founded on the basis of
discovering inherent wisdom. The light of this inherent wisdom is the natural
spontaneous wisdom of the inherent nature of mind. It is what Buddhists call
“inherent original mind,” and it is also called the true mind. The true mind
accompanies the inherent nature of the minds of sentient beings all along;
there is no gap, and it cannot be interrupted. It’s just that many people
cannot recognize it. When we recognize it, true mind appears. When we cannot
recognize it, dark clouds block the sun, but we cannot say that then there is
no sun. The sun exists all along; it’s just that the clouds of false mind cover
the sun.
True mind is like the sun. Although it
does not have the warmth of the sun, still, it can illuminate the dark night of
a person’s mind and spirit, and enable people to bid farewell to all delusion
and confusion, and clearly see the true characteristic of life, and find the
direction for human life and the meaning of living. It is like opening a
curtain and letting the bright sunshine enter into a dark room. The instant you
illuminate mind and see its inherent nature, everything become pure and bright.
Illuminating mind and seeing its inherent nature – this is enlightenment, this
is recognizing true mind and seeing empty inherent nature.
When your mind and spirit become empty
and pure and clear and bright, you will be absolutely unwilling to use thoughts
to disturb it. You will savor it as if savoring a cup of fine pure tea. All the
things which once made you pursue things like a hungry wolf pursuing its prey
then all become dull and insipid, and you will not understand what you would
endure so much pain and sufferingfor, why you pursed them oblivious of
everything, but you won’t feel like thinking about the reasons anymore. You
pursued them, okay, and then you gave them up, okay: whether you went wrong, or
got it right, okay – it’s all gone. All you want is to savor this tranquility,
all you want is to cherish all you have before your eyes, all you want to do is
concentrate on each moment. This is because you clearly understand that all you
can control is the present moment. Everything becomes simple, natural.
Everything is like flowing water, continuously moving forward. Your thinking,
your mind, will never again be imprisoned somewhere in the past. You will
finally understand what is meant by “living in the here and now.” One of my
students said to me that before, she had always felt that the territory of her
life was very large, large enough to surround her: that was her world. But when
she rode in an airplane, and she looked down and saw the lands and buildings
looking so small, she discovered that the world was much more vast than she had
imagined it. It included not only the city where she lived and the people
around her, but also the whole universe, and countless living things. In fact,
it is like this. Human beings are not the masters of the world and of the
universe. All that one person can control is his or her own mind and spirit.
One day you may truly become the master of your mind and spirit, and then the
world in your mind will be totally transformed, and your feelings toward the
world will be entirely different.
The true mind is something inherent in
life, but not every person is able to recognize it. For people who are fully
equipped with genuine faith, recognizing the true mind is as easy as turning
over their hand. For people who do not have the mind of faith, recognizing the
true mind is as difficult as climbing up into the sky. The most difficult part
lies in its quality of “don’t speak, don’t speak – once you speak, you go
wrong.” It is like love: only those who have genuinely been in love know what
kind of feeling love is. When you stop all miscellaneous thoughts, and observe
your own inherent mind, then you will discover that you mind is fundamentally a
transparent crystal. This is a realm that cannot be described with something as
pale and feebleas language. This is because, for people who have never tasted
the finest Longjing tea, no description of Longjing tea can enable them to
understand its flavor. This is why all I can do is guide you to discover the
treasury of your inner mind – you yourself must make this journey of seeking
it.
You may not like making this journey.
You might feel as if you are traveling through an endless dark night, getting
your fill of the torments of not knowing and being confused, not knowing
whether the direction you are preceding along is correct or not, and not
knowing when you will finally be able to get to the end of the dark night. You
might not even know whether or not this dark night has an end. It might seem
that in your world there is no daylight. In the dark night, you stumble along in
one direction that may be correct, with the mud and gravel chafing your body,
getting your body soaked in the muddy water from under the ground. You get very
fatigued, but you do not want to give up: you go forward resolutely in your
great yearning. You know that coming out of the dark night is the most
important thing in your life. In this resolute certainty, there will suddenly
appear a feeble bit of light, and in that instant, all your thoughts will
dissolve away, and all that will be in your mind will be purity and joy. Your
footsteps will finally have direction, and your mind will be filled with
strength. You will be able to hear your heart beating strong and solid, and you
will feel no more fear. You will have direction, and your mind will be filled with
strength, and you may even be able to feel your strong heartbeat. You will know
how to eliminate the damage caused by all barriers and defilements, and you
will feel that this cannot be counted as damage. It’s like this: you know that
the person you deeply love is beyond a forest of thorns, and to see her, you
are willing to endure the pain of the thorns pricking you all over your body.
That pain will all dissolve away, and everything that has happened will all
become for you proof of the journey you made for love. During that painful
struggle, your love and your mind and spirit, which had beenfragile and weak,
have become stronger day by day, and in the end you cannot be bothered by
external things. This process is truly filled with a moving poetic quality.