Mercy is now

Mercy is now

Xuemo

I often think: what would I most want to do in this moment if I encounter Wenchuan big earthquake. Write passages which I most want to write, read books which I would feel pity if I didn’t，treat every friend including relatives with kindness, treasure every moment of life, and make it full of refreshment and happiness, live in present, now. Never wait to enjoy happiness until your son grows up. Not everyone has the future, but everyone has the “present”.

I had so many friends when I came here and I still have now apparently. You think you are still you, but actually you are not. Your flesh has changed because many cells have changed, and you are older than you one hour ago. You are not the just now. Your heart is not the one just now. Because just now, you didn’t know Liangzhou eminent or the culture of Big hand seal. You didn’t know Xuemo can talk such a kind of strange things. Now you know, and your heart has changed. Every moment of future, you are changing. You are not the forever one, and the forever one is only in present.

Therefore, big hand seal culture peruses present, living in present, not adhering to the past or the future. We need to live understandingly, freshly, happily in present. Do not let the world outside present disturb you. Do not confuse you mind for the complication of world. Do not lose your temper to relatives because the world brings you anger. Because many years later, not sure when, so-called relatives are going to be a pile of bones. At that time, you don’t even have the chance to express your love.

I’ve written a novel named "The Wolf of Xi Xia". There is a girl who treasures her flesh very much when she was alive. Then she died. She can’t express when her soul want to say “I love you” to her lover. That’s this simple. Because, there’s no tongue letting her to express her love, no eyes letting her to appreciate the beauty of the world, no ears to listen more about the relatives’ talk, including their pains. Think about it, when you listen relatives’ pains, you bring them a kind of relaxation and happiness. What a good thing. Nevertheless, we are too busy. All of us are tempted by the outside world, and can never find their own hearts. Not knowing treating relatives kindly nor living in present. We’ve been occupied by so many “differences”. How can we get rid of it and grow up like a child? An infant who is not polluted by the world smiles happily to his mother, that’s what we called “the pure heart of a newborn babe”. He smiles not because his mother is rich, not because his father would leave him legacy, also not because this world would give him a title. He is happy then he smiles. Every human being has this kind of heart, but our hearts become more and more complicated, dirty, because of our greed and craving. We don’t have that kind of pure heart like facing to mom.

Therefore, is there anything unperfected when everyone has a pure heart to face all people and things in the world, like a baby to his mother?

One day, a child asked me, “Xuemo, this world is so unperfected, so messy. What can I do?” I said we do not live for the world, and the world does not care of anyone. No matter whom he is, Stalin, Marx, Mao Zedong, or other great people, the earth is still running when they disappeared. Even after the western philosopher Nietzsche said "god is dead", Western Christian still runs so well. This world can leave anything and it does not care of you. Everyone lives for himself. When you live for yourself, you have to understand what you would leave after your flesh go away. For example, if you are a villain, are you more and more noble day after day and become a gentleman? You have “profits” if you do it. You were a villain and now you are a gentleman. Of course you have “profits”, because this means you didn’t live in vain.  You didn’t leave any trace in the world when you lived like a fly flies away, but now you did.  For instance, Lei Feng only lived for about twenty years, but we can still remember him. He didn’t live in vain when he left a famous name and glorious spirit using his deed in this world.

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慈悲是当下的关怀

雪漠

我常想，下一刻我如果遇到了汶川大地震这样的事件时，此刻最想做的是什么？写出我最想写的文章，读我这辈子不读就会遗憾的书，善待每一个朋友包括亲人，珍惜每一个生命瞬间让它充满清凉、快乐，活在当下，就是现在。永远不要等到将来儿子大的时候再去享受快乐。每一个人不一定有将来，但每个人都有“当下”。

刚才进来的时候有这么多朋友，现在表面看来还都是这么多朋友。你依然是你，实际上你已经不是你。你的肉体因为许多的细胞发生了变化，你的肉体变了，你比刚才衰老了一小时。你不是刚才的你。你的心更不是刚才的心。因为刚才你不知道凉州贤孝也不知道大手印文化，不知道雪漠还会说这样一种奇谈怪论。现在你知道了，心也变了。未来的每一个瞬间你都在变化，你不是永远的你，永远的你只有当下。

所以，大手印文化追求当下，活在当下，不执著于过去，不执著于将来，要明明白白、清清凉凉、快快乐乐地活在当下。不要叫当下之外的世界干扰你，不要因为这个世界的花花绿绿而眼花心乱，别把外部世界带给你的情绪发泄到你亲人的身上。因为，许多年后说不定什么时候，所谓的亲人就是一堆骨头。那时，你连想表达爱的机会都没有了。

我写过一个小说叫《西夏的苍狼》。其中有一个女孩子生前特别珍惜自己的肉体。后来，她死了，她的灵魂想对爱人说一声“我爱你”的时候，她没有办法来表达。就这么简单。因为，没有舌头让她再去表达那个爱，没有眼睛让她再去欣赏这个世界的美丽，没有耳朵去听亲人们的许多倾诉，包括他们的痛苦。想一想，当你倾听亲人们的痛苦，给他们带来一种轻松和快乐时，这是多么好的事啊！但是我们太忙了，大家都被外面的世界所诱惑，再也找不到自己的心。不知道善待亲人，不知道活在当下。我们被这个世界的许多“分别”占据了心灵。我们应该怎样来消除这个东西，像孩子一样长大？一个没有受到人间污染的婴儿，对母亲那种灿烂的笑，被称为“赤子之心”。不是因为妈妈有多少钱他才笑，不是因为爸爸要给他遗产他才笑，也不是因为这个世界要给他职称他才笑。他快乐他就笑。每个人类都有这样一个本来的心，因为我们的贪婪、欲望让我们的心变得越来越复杂，越来越肮脏，越来越污垢。没有了面对母亲一般的赤子之心。

所以，当每个人面对这个世界的所有人、事，都有一颗赤子之心，像一个婴儿对母亲的那份真心的时候，这个世界还有什么不完美的？

一天，一个孩子问我，他说：“雪漠老师，这个世界那么不完美，那么的乌七八糟，怎么办？”。我说每个人不是活给世界的，这个世界不在乎任何人。无论他是斯大林、马克思、毛泽东，还是其他伟大的人，既使他们在消失的时候，地球依然在转动。甚至西方的哲学家尼采说过“上帝死了”以后，西方的基督教依然运行得那么好。这个世界离开什么都可以，这个世界不在乎你的。每个人是活给自己的。当你活给自己的时候，你就必须明白，当你的肉体离开这个世界之后，你为你自己留下了哪些东西？比如，如果你是一个小人，那么，你是不是在离开世界之前时，一天比一天高尚一点，成为一个君子？做到这一点你就“盈利”了。你本来是一个小人现在成为一个君子，当然是“盈利”了，这就说明你没有白活。当你曾经像苍蝇飞过虚空一样，在这个世界留不下任何痕迹的时候，现在却留下了痕迹。比如，雷锋活了二十多岁，但现在我们仍记得雷锋。他用他的行为在这个世界的时空中，留下了一个响亮的名字和一种伟大的精神，他就没有白活。

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